kaydee falls
31 May 2012 @ 06:55 pm
HI I AM ALIVE I SWEAR.

Have been more or less completely disconnected from fandom for a week. Moving most of the way across the country is kind of a process, FYI. But I am here and more or less moved in and oh god I haven't even thought about my Reversebang in a week, fuck. I fail at fandom. But not at life, which is a nice change! Though the next month is basically going to be insane for me. Well, the next three months, but June in particular. We're doing three shows in rep, so the first month is a rotating wheel of hell of rehearsals and tech and openings. Once the shows are open and running, it will be much less crazy.

BUT LOOK WHERE I'M LIVING GUYS.

mountains

And this is one of the LESS attractive views from this town. One of these days I'm going to actually go down to the lake to take some proper pictures. Basically, I'm right next to a gorgeous lake in the Rockies, so everywhere you look are MOUNTAINS and SKY and LAKE and it's pretty much scenery!porn all the way, plus beautiful weather (so far). The downside is adjusting to the altitude -- 9000 feet above sea level is no joke, FYI. There's just not as much oxygen up here. I haven't felt the effects too badly so far. Just more tired and thirsty than usual, and wow, a little bit of alcohol goes quite a long way.

So, yes! Hopefully now that the furor of moving has died down and I've got something resembling a regular-ish schedule, I can return to my regularly scheduled fandom. But it's funny how much less important writing fic is to me when I'm actually doing something that makes me happy in RL.

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kaydee falls
27 May 2012 @ 10:45 pm
Oof.  
Greetings from Kingdom City, Missouri! Don't let the name fool you: this is neither a kingdom nor a city. It's more of an intersection. With a motel, but without wi-fi. Thank god for iPhones.

So, yes, cross-country road trip definitely ongoing. Loaded up my car and left DC yesterday afternoon, spent last night at my uncle's place in Knoxville, Tennessee, stopped by my grandmother's nursing home this morning, had lunch with friends in Nashville, dinner in St Louis, and now I'm in the middle of nowhere, Missouri. I'm hoping to make it to my aunt in Denver tomorrow night, but first I must survive 600 straight, flat, empty miles of Kansas. Pray for me, my friends.

Haven't checked DW/LJ/Tumblr since...Thursday? I'm preemptively conceding defeat on Tumblr. Have completely and utterly failed at writing anything all week because I suck. Oh, well.

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kaydee falls
21 May 2012 @ 02:21 pm
Well, this weekend was pretty much a wash. I pretty much spent the entire weekend rewatching West Wing for no apparent reason. No writing, a bit of packing and organizing but not much. Oops. Still, I kind of needed that.

Friday was my last day of work at the Big Gay NPO; I'd been there almost three years. I won't miss it much. Some of the people, maybe, but not the job itself. Being done is a huge load of stress off my back, you don't even know. Granted, now I have moving!stress and oh-god-what-am-I-doing-with-my-life!stress, but still. Totally worth it.

I have less than a week before I leave D.C. Huh. I've pretty much said all my goodbyes to people here; I've been more social in the past couple of weeks than in, like, the six months before that. Figures. But now I've got nothing left but packing. UGH I HATE PACKING. I'm taking it slow, just doing a few things every day. But yeah. This week's practically a vacation for me. Hopefully I won't squander it all away watching more West Wing, but I make no promises.

I did just do a major rewrite on a section of my Reversebang -- I'd been stuck on it for weeks, because I couldn't decide whether to keep the section as is or overhaul it to favor action over character moments, and I couldn't move forward because my decision would significantly affect the next several scenes. But the pacing just sucked, so I bit the bullet and rewrote it, axing out a LOT of Charles/Erik stuff in favor of Erik being an impulsive asshole. Which makes more sense for his character and improves the pacing and keeps the stakes a lot higher, granted, and that was why the section wasn't working before, but still. It's always hard for me to make massive cuts like that. Oh, well, hopefully now I can move forward. There's still a LOT of this fic left to write.

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kaydee falls
17 May 2012 @ 08:38 am
Apparently I misunderstood the X-Men Reversebang schedule -- and it sounds like I'm not the only one, since they just posted a clarification that while there's a mandatory author check-in on May 21, the rough draft itself isn't due until June 20. THANK JEBUS. Seriously, writing this thing has been like pulling teeth, and while I've been planning on devoting this weekend to working on it, it's extremely unlikely I'll be 80% done with the fic by Monday. And now I have a whole extra MONTH to get there!

I've shoved other WIPs to the side over the past few weeks to work on this one, which has been massively frustrating given my lack of significant progress, but now I think I can allow myself to poke at Queen's Gambit again. Because I'm finally at the exciting part of that fic, but I didn't want to give it too much attention while I had this huge deadline hanging over my head. I feel so free now!

...though, okay, I'm crap at the collaborating-with-your-artist part of Reversebang, because for me, writing is a very private and isolated process -- I almost never share WIP drafts with anyone else until they're polished to a ready-for-beta point (which, for me, means I've gone through and done my own edits several times through already). Even Queen's Gambit, which I'm posting as a WIP -- I need to have a complete, coherent 10k-ish word chapter before I'll even show it to my betas. I don't know how to write collaboratively. Should I be e-mailing my artist scenes as I finish them, even though I know I'll rewrite them a bunch more times and I hate hate hate having other people see my roughest drafts? Should I, like, offer to share the gdoc with her? How is this supposed to work?

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kaydee falls
09 May 2012 @ 05:21 pm
Obama Affirms Support for Same-Sex Marriage | Video - ABC News

President Obama announces his support of same-sex marriage. About damn time.

Perks of working for a major LGBT org: I got the heads up that this was likely happening about half an hour before the interview was even recorded. Our phones have been ringing off the hook for the past three hours, holy shit.

My mother e-mailed me with the news about twenty minutes ago, being all HAVE YOU HEARD. I'm like, seriously, mom, you think I somehow would have not heard about this by now? :P

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kaydee falls
04 May 2012 @ 10:12 am
I got less than three hours of sleep last night. IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT. AVENGERS ASSEMBLE. With spoilers, obvs. )

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kaydee falls
03 May 2012 @ 08:59 am
Had a low-grade headache all day yesterday, which made me feel cranky and out-of-sorts, so when I got home I curled up in bed with some fic to read and then I opened my eyes again and it was nearly midnight. Um. So I rolled over and went back to sleep and didn't get up until my alarm went off at 6:30am this morning. Which means that I slept for more than twelve hours.

On the plus side, I feel really well-rested today. Which is good, because I'm going to the midnight showing of the Avengers, so it's not like I'm going to be getting any sleep tonight.

Avengers! I'm still primarily an X-Men girl, but I'm pretty darn excited for this, especially since everyone who's seen it already seems to be raving about it. (Which is also why I decided to just give in and see the midnight showing despite how sleep-deprived and miserable it will make work tomorrow -- I've already been accidentally spoiled on two major things I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO BE SPOILED ABOUT, and that'll only get worse once it finally opens in the US.) So, yeah, meeting up with a group of fen in Silver Spring to go see, that should be awesome.

Super frustrated with myself on the writing front. I managed all of 1000 words of Reversebang over the weekend, and it's all pretty much crap and I don't know how to make it not crap. I'm tempted to scrap everything and start from scratch, but I barely have any ideas for this fic at all, and I don't know where else to go with it. The artwork is so gorgeous, seriously, but my brain is just not fucking cooperating. I'm too stubborn to drop out, but I have to produce a rough draft in three weeks, and I'm terrified that it will just be completely awful. UGH.

...and that's how I get into the sort of toxic headspace where I shut down and sleep for twelve hours straight to avoid my own brain.

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kaydee falls
28 April 2012 @ 08:36 pm
Saw Cabin in the Woods. Non-spoilery: can Bradley Whitford be one of Joss Whedon's new hat tricks now? Because apparently Josh Lyman was a Whedon character all along and I just never realized it until now.

spoilers: I loved it. )

Speaking of Chris Hemsworth but not this movie, two things I only recently realized: 1. he played Kirk's dad in the Star Trek reboot; 2. he is Liam Hemsworth's older brother. Guys, Gale Hawthorne is Thor's baby brother. Sorry, just needed to get that out there. Apparently I'm slow or something.

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kaydee falls
26 April 2012 @ 09:41 pm
Apparently I'm doing spring cleaning on my vidding WIP folder! Basically, I spent all of last night editing together a soundtrack for the Hunger Games vid I'm itching to make, and then tonight I channeled my frustrations at the lack of accessible HG source into finishing off a Doctor Who vid that I hadn't touched in over a year. This one is nothing special, but it's been sitting unfinished and taunting me for about two years now, so here we go. (Seriously, I started it around the end of Doctor Who series five.)

I originally meant this as a sort of companion piece (ha!) to Book of Days, which was all about the kickass ladies of Doctor Who. So this one's in honor of the many dorky boyfriends of Rose, Martha, and Amy. ♥ I cut myself off at the end of S5, because that's where my headspace was when I'd started it, and because it's almost unfair how much more awesome footage there is of Rory than of the other guys once S6 is taken into account. (Sure, Jack got his own show, but he's only in a handful of actual DW episodes; Mickey lasted for the entirety of RTD's tenure, but only sporadically. Rory has a distinct advantage at this point.) One-off boyfriends include Adam ("Dalek" and "Long Game"), Riley ("42"), and Tom ("Last of the Time Lords").


Another World
edited by kaydee falls
fandom: Doctor Who
characters: Mickey, Jack, Rory (+ others); Rose, Martha, Amy, Doctor
music: "Another World", by Poe
summary: another world, another time, another place -- don't you worry, my baby. This one's for the boyfriends.
watch: embed below the cut, or on Vimeo
download: Mediafire (.mov, 56 MB)
disclaimer: not mine, no profit, don't sue.
notes: spoilers only through 5x13, nothing beyond.

don't you worry, my baby )

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kaydee falls
24 April 2012 @ 09:27 am
While being berated over the phone by a stranger for something I am not responsible for and have no real power to fix, it does help to remind myself that I'll only be answering these fucking phones for another four weeks. Nineteen business days, and I'm gone forever.

This is a good feeling.

The actual reality of my leaving DC in a month is starting to sink in. Gave notice at work, am gradually informing my local friends/coworkers, preparing to pack up my apartment. I hate the process of moving, but oh, am I ever glad to be going. And a bit terrified, because change is scary and my contract in Colorado is only for three months and then what do I do? And my show closed Sunday, which brought me full circle because that was the theater I originally moved to DC for in the first place almost four years ago. And now I'm done. Weird.

But hey, at least I'll have plenty of free time over my last month in Washington to just hang out and say goodbye. And write fic, obvs.

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kaydee falls
22 April 2012 @ 01:14 am
Queen's Gambit, chapter 5.

So: Queen's Gambit is a classic chess opening move in which white offers a pawn as sacrifice in the hope of achieving a resulting advantageous position.

In other words, game on.

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kaydee falls
19 April 2012 @ 09:03 am
Since all the cool kids are doing it, and I clearly love nothing more than pretending to be cool and failing magnificently, AO3 hitcount meme time! For the record, I have 138 fics uploaded to AO3.

my top 10 fics, by hitcount )

observations )

Speaking of fic, I sent the next chapter of Queen's Gambit off to beta earlier this week. So that's coming. :) And my show closes Sunday, which means a solid month of only working my day job and having BUCKETS of writing time and packing to move more than halfway across the country, holy shit.

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kaydee falls
13 April 2012 @ 01:19 pm
Still alive! Got sucked back into the vortex of tech for another week there, it's always a bit strange reemerging. Have been trying to respond to comment backlog, with only moderate success. Also catching up on Tumblr is terrifying, still.

This show has been both less difficult and more stressful than the last, which is weird and hard to explain, but we opened last night and I think it's come together well. So that's okay. Yesterday was my first day back at day job from my "vacation" in tech, and within two hours, I got into an actual shouting match with my boss. O_O This is...not normal for me, to say the least. It was both deeply frustrating and incredibly embarrassing, and I'm still really pissed. My boss is not a good manager, and another member of our team has gotten into it with him on multiple occasions, but normally I'm the sort of person to swallow back my anger and keep my head down -- I hate confrontation -- but this time, I just...snapped. Since then he's been alternating between making occasional passive-aggressive digs at me or just ignoring me outright, like the mature professional adult he is. UGH, sorry, I'm just so frustrated right now. But it's only for a few more weeks, as I've been constantly reminding myself.

Need to get back into some kind of fannish mindset, for both WIPs and Reversebang. But this show only runs for another week, and then I have only the day job for a month of counting down to getting the fuck out of here, so that should be good writing time. Hopefully. I wish I were the sort of writer who can just pick up a fic and write whenever I have a spare ten minutes, but unless the ideas are just burning out of me, I don't function like that. I need a solid chunk of time to destress and get into the right headspace, and then I can write for hours at a stretch without a break, but that's not a luxury I've had over the past few weeks. I miss it.

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kaydee falls
06 April 2012 @ 12:46 pm
so.  
I got the job.

Looks like I'm moving to Colorado at the end of May.

\o/!!!!!

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kaydee falls
Reread Hunger Games Monday night and Catching Fire last night, trying to hold off on giving Mockingjay another go immediately because there are totally other things I'd like to be doing with my limited and quickly-disappearing free time but seriously, who do I think I'm kidding. And now vid bunnies are biting for the first time in months, which is a pity, because there is no Hunger Games source yet and the ideas I have really need to wait for the rest of the movies to be made anyway. But theoretically, somewhere in the future, it's entirely possible I will do another Vienna Teng vid series for Hunger Games, because her songs, they are speaking to my fandom brain again. "Hope On Fire", definitely -- lyrics far too eerily appropriate, ugh, my heart. (Gotta leave, gotta bleed / You've gotta stop lying still / 'cause this is no kind of life. CHRIST.) I want some Catching Fire footage for that one, though, for obvious reasons. And I'll have to wait through all of Mockingjay for "Gravity", which very much wants to be an endgame Katniss/Peeta vid (So don't turn away now / I am turning in revolution / These are the scars that silence carved on me). But, y'know. That. HELP ME I AM HAVING FEELINGS, CANNOT COPE.

Zero fic drive for this fandom, though. I might trawl AO3 for any decent Katniss/Peeta fics, but I don't have high hopes, and I have no interest in writing anything except possibly that X-Men fusion bunny where District 13 is run by Charles Xavier, who's been keeping it hidden from the Capitol for years and years and yeah, no way do I have any intention of writing this, I have a whole 'nother fusion 'verse to finish.

Anyway. Went home early from work today because I felt like shit -- I've been sick for about a week now, and it's starting to really piss me off. Not seriously ill, just a bad cold or minor flu or whatever, but it's lingering on way longer than it has any right to, probably because I haven't had a single day off to actually rest (and won't get one until the last weekend of April). I'm just exhausted. But there's nothing I can do about that. Next show loads in Friday.

Okay, going to try to keep writing X-Men fic now. (I have managed to write a complete scene today. This is...not really progress.)

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kaydee falls
02 April 2012 @ 08:20 pm
HELLO. So my ridiculous awesome bizarre abstract underwater puppet show is now over -- that was a whirlwind couple of weeks right there. Strike was yesterday, it SUCKED, I will never not hate strike with every fiber of my being, but it's over so who cares. The next one kicks in starting Friday, this time with 100% less GIANT WATER TANKS THAT NEED TO BE DRAINED AND REFILLED EVERY DAY, so that's cool, but it basically means I need to cram all the fandom in I can in these four weekday evenings because it's my last good shot until the end of April.

So first off, X-Men Reversebang! I somehow managed to get online at just the right time for claims -- which, given that was literally the ONLY time I got on my laptop at all on Saturday, I'm kind of impressed with myself -- and then was lucky enough to land my first choice, which is by far the prettiest and everyone else can just go home. :P I kid, all the art was gorgeous, but anyway. I felt a bit guilty at first, because it looks like a lot of other people had wanted to claim that art, while my second choice remains unclaimed, and I'd actually had a much stronger plotbunny for my second choice but the one that I wound up marking as first was just so strangely compelling despite my lack of clear story idea that, well, yeah. I almost felt like I should offer to swap claims for a minute there. But having had a couple of days to mull it over, this morning I basically woke up with a sudden rabid plotbunny -- or, well, scattered-strong-images bunny, there is no plot yet, but I know several scenes I want to write with VIVID clarity and, yeah, I'm really glad I got this prompt. Haven't heard anything from my artist yet -- I sent her a long rambling excited e-mail early this morning, but no response -- but that's okay, I'm not really going to be able to start writing anything for a while yet. First priority this week is desperately trying to complete the next chapter of Queen's Gambit, though I make no promises. But it's a goal. I only have like 5k to write and I know what needs to happen in it, I don't know why I'm getting so hung up on this, but that's kind of been a general theme for this whole dratted fic. Oh, well.

Second, I FINALLY SAW HUNGER GAMES THIS AFTERNOON OMG OMG OMG. spoilers: IT WAS AWESOME )

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kaydee falls
30 March 2012 @ 01:58 pm
Is anyone else on DW getting BUCKETS of spam comments today? Because I am, and it's incredibly annoying. This happens occasionally on LJ, but this is the first time I've been hit on DW, and it's...quite a lot of them in a short span of time. I've just added a CAPTCHA setting for anon comments, hopefully that'll help.

Completely unrelatedly, I am feeling super meh about the X-Men Reverse Bang. Not because the art isn't lovely, because it totally is! There's a lot of really gorgeous artwork up there! But while I've enjoyed looking at it all, only a bare handful of the prompts interest me as a writer. Which makes me a super crappy unimaginative writer, I guess. There are plenty I'd be interested in reading but don't feel confident or interested in writing myself (i.e. a Regency!AU -- would love to read it, but I'm not really familiar enough with the historical period to feel comfortable writing it, Austen aside; this is where being a very research-committed writer trips me up, because I don't want to just wing it and Get Shit Wrong). There are a couple that do pique my interest strongly, but honestly, not enough to fill out the requisite quota of five options, and I would hate to put an artist into a situation in which they're stuck with a writer who isn't 100% thrilled about their prompt. Which probably means I should just drop out, but, man, I really do want to participate in this one. Urg. I'll sit on it and have another look through the prompts tomorrow and see if I can come up with five. Again, I can definitely pick WAY more than five beautiful pieces of art in the exchange. But some of the pieces I admire the most are for AU scenarios I just don't think I could write. Argh.

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kaydee falls
29 March 2012 @ 01:41 pm
And, what the hey, have a meme.

1. Go to page 77 (or 7) of your current ms.
2. Go to line 7
3. Copy down the next 7 lines – sentences or paragraphs – and post them as they’re written.


Hilariously, Queen's Gambit currently stands (or sits heavily, given my lack of free time of late) at 115 pages in gdocs, but if I played by the rules, page 77 falls in a part that's already been posted, so that's no fun. So I'll go with page 7 of the current WIP chapter. Which...huh, turned out to be kind of an important shippy moment. And out of context, this could be pretty much any random modern!AU.

i write raven/angel now. raven/angel is cool. )

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kaydee falls
29 March 2012 @ 11:09 am
I have emerged from the depths of tech, and I already miss it so badly I could scream. There's nothing quite like taking a "vacation" from your day job to work a week straight of 12-hour days in a high-stress environment to get your priorities straight. I spent the past week watching five puppeteers in wetsuits manipulate strange fabrics in a giant water tank while calling lights in synch with Berlioz's "Symphonie Fantastique" as performed by a classical pianist, dealing with four hoses and pumps and leaks and ACTUAL TONS OF WATER and one puppeteer's injury and another's illness and a finicky and occasionally combative pair of producers and a revolving door crew of college-aged stagehands with varying degrees of experience and aptitude while learning the most technically intricate lighting cues I've ever called pretty much on the fly with no days off or much free time to speak of, and while "happy" is a strange and strong word, I've been more content with my life in this week than at any point in the past year. This morning I returned to my day job, and within an hour, all that positive energy had completely drained away.

My day job is in an aesthetically pleasing and geographically convenient building, with huge windows and plenty of daylight; I get along well with all of my coworkers and believe passionately in the mission of the organization. The job is relatively low-stress and after two and a half years, I can pretty much do it in my sleep. I receive a very fair wage and decent benefits for minimal effort. And I would pretty much rather stab my eyes out with a rusty spork than drag myself to work in the morning.

And as I finished writing that sentence, I got an e-mail from one of the many, many full-time theater jobs I've applied for in the past few months requesting an interview. My (completely silent) reaction was noticeable enough that two people passing through the lobby joked that something good must've just happened.

So, yeah, it's time to move on out.

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kaydee falls
19 March 2012 @ 10:49 am
I am now irrationally convinced that Riley Finn left Sunnydale because he was recruited by S.H.I.E.L.D. Not the Avengers Initiative, but, y'know, I'm pretty sure he's done his fair share of black ops with Agent Barton.

Fortunately, I don't like Riley enough to actually write that fic. But pondering it amuses me greatly.

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kaydee falls
14 March 2012 @ 10:28 pm
Bit of random meta, mostly because I feel like rambling about stuff I love to take my mind off stuff that stresses me out.

So, again, on a bit of a Buffyverse kick at the moment, and I was thinking about trying to come up with a list of my top ten episodes or something, which made me think about what I'd consider my top episodes of any show I love, which made me think about what episodes define my favorite shows. And I realized that for me, at least, what makes me fannish about a show -- as opposed to "oh, yeah, that one's fun" -- tends to boil down to two specific types of episodes: the Hook, and the Game Changer. I need to encounter both of these episodes to want to dive into a fandom.

You all know what I mean. First, there's the Hook: that episode that really sells you on the show. Its placement can vary, but usually -- if you're watching the series in order, anyway -- it probably needs to fall somewhere in the first season, or you'll give up watching. (Alternately, it's that random episode you stumble across somewhere in the middle of the run of the show that drags you in without your actually knowing anything else about the show at all but holy jebus that was awesome, where can I find more?) It's the episode where a new show finds its footing, starts to figure out what it's really going to be about. It's the character moment that just NAILS it, or the plotline that really speaks to you personally, or just a really friggin' cool shot that makes your breath catch and you think, hey, this is nifty. And you never forget that moment.

Then there's the Game Changer. Episodic television is generally formulaic by nature, and I'm not saying that in a bad way. It has to be. That's what keeps its viewers coming back, week after week after week. We know what to expect, we know the characters, we know the types of story we're going to be told, and we're familiar enough with it to know we'll probably enjoy it. Totally cool. And most decently successful shows ride that wave all the way through the end. But the really good ones, the ones that develop obsessive crazy awesome fans, are the ones that test their own limits, push the edges of the formula, blow it all wide open -- if only for a story arc or two. The Game Changer is that episode. The one that dramatically raises or outright changes the stakes for the characters, the one whose repercussions ripple throughout the rest of the series, the one from which you can never go back. Sometimes it comes right in the first season. Sometimes it takes years before it happens. But oh, man, do we ever sit up and take notice when it does.

There are plenty of other episode archetypes, if I really wanted to sit around and come up with a few more catchy and overly simplistic labels for them. But the Hook and the Game Changer are the two episodes in any given show that will always, always, always turn up in any "best of" episode list I could ever think up. Any given TV show could have any number of Game Changers, depending on how you classify them; there are certainly degrees. For example, in Buffy, I'd consider "Passion" the first huge Game Changer -- we're shown the full extent of Angelus's evil for the first time, and our first major recurring character is killed, brutally, onscreen. But you could also argue that the "Surprise"/"Innocence" two-parter is the Game Changer, for giving us Angelus in the first place, or "School Hard", where Spike casually and deliberately kills the Anointed One, subverting all the expectations set by the first season's arc; or to a lesser extent, go back to "Prophecy Girl", where Buffy actually confronts the fact that she is going to die, which changes her personal stakes for the rest of the series (though I think that's more a logical continuation of the first season's overall story arc than a change, exactly). So, yeah, to a certain extent, the Game Changer is subjective; the Hook even more so, because that's very personal to each individual fan. But you've got to have both to really become fannish about a show. This is why I gave up on Supernatural -- I'm sure there are plenty of Game Changers over its run (and could probably list a few by sheer fannish osmosis), but I never got my Hook episode, so while I've certainly been entertained by the episodes I've watched, I never could get into it properly. My big frustration with Merlin is that while I certainly got my Hook (for me, "The Beginning of the End" -- Merlin's darker side and the Mordred reveal, oh my stars and garters), there has never been a proper Game Changer, and it started pissing me off so much it drained all my enjoyment out of the show. (While certainly there were episodes that had major repercussions, the basic status quo of Merlin's secret and Arthur and Merlin's twisted sort of friendship have never, ever changed, so even as other circumstances changed drastically, I feel like the show itself remained utterly static.)

So now I'm going to ramble on a bit about my favorite TV shows. You've been warned.

Buffyverse )

X-Files )

Avatar )

Whoniverse )

Sorkinverse )

Stopping there because it's late and I'm sleepy, but I could do this for a bunch of other shows. (And ETA, realized I really had to add Avatar in here.) What are your Hooks & Game Changers for your big fannish loves? Is there another type of episode that you need to get involved in a fandom, or is it all about the characters and the individual episodes don't matter at all, or something else entirely? I like reading people's meta about these sorts of things. :)

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kaydee falls
07 March 2012 @ 02:09 pm
Why hello there, self-doubt, how lovely to see you again. blah blah angstcakes )

AND NOW FOR SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. So, is LJ completely dead these days, or is it just me? Is the great fandom migration officially shipping over to Tumblr? Because every morning, I check first DW, then LJ, then Tumblr; DW has moderate activity, maybe 5-10mins of browsing, LJ takes maybe 2 mins at most, and then Tumblr provides a good half hour of entertainment at least. Which makes me a little sad, because I genuinely prefer text-based fandom interaction over reblogging photos, but if that's where all the activity is... Anyway, I'm kaydeefalls over at Tumblr, unsurprisingly, if that's your thing.

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mood: anxiousanxious
 
 
kaydee falls
02 March 2012 @ 01:57 pm
Ugh. It's been a week, let me tell you. So I'm going to do my level best to put myself into a writing coma all weekend, since I've got nothing else to do. It's going to be my last real free weekend for a while -- next weekend, I'm heading up to Philadelphia with my mom to figure out whether or not I want to move there, and the weekend after that is the last before my next show kicks into gear, so I'll be frantically prepping for tech.

Now the question is which of my various and sundry WIPs to focus on. SO HOW ABOUT A RANDOM POLL.



It's probably telling that I'm super fucking excited at the prospect of locking myself in my bedroom and writing all weekend. Um. Introvert, much?

(ETA: Aaaand apparently LJ won't let me post functional polls, even when I create them in its own stupid poll creator. Thanks, LJ, for continuously reminding me why I switched over to DW.)

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mood: boredbored
 
 
kaydee falls
02 March 2012 @ 09:47 am
Queen's Gambit, chapter 4. In which everybody learns shit they kinda wish they didn't have to know.

I really need to give a shout-out to my fucking awesome betas, also, because they are infinitely patient with this incredibly slow fic, and [info]ilovetakahana is fantastic at technical nitpicks and making my sentences flow better while [personal profile] rosaw picks out all the narrative issues and character arcs, and I get the best of both worlds. Thank you both for being fabulous, always.

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mood: okayokay